days, hours, minutes, seconds go by and you’re still running through my mind. i miss you so much, it hurts. i’ve never felt this way about someone. i’m not used to feeling this way. if only people knew, if only YOU knew what has been really going on the past month especially with what i’ve had to deal with & you not being there was more painful then ever. why is getting over you so difficult? i don’t get it. i want to move on already, but i feel as though i wouldn’t be faithful to that person because at the end of the day, it all comes back to you. you had the nerve to delete me off facebook and didn’t even wish me a happy birthday. do you know how much that broke me? you just don’t care. at all. what happened to you? what happened to the sweet & genuine guy i dated a little over a month ago? where’d he go? he would NEVER dare treat me the way you are treating me now. i see you in the hallways and you just turn your head as if i don’t exist. as if all the memories we shared together meant nothing to you. i wish i had the courage to go up to you and tell you everything that has been eating at me for the past several weeks, but i’m scared. i’m scared of your rejection and you not even acknowledging my presence. i just want answers & that’s all i’m asking for. i want to know the truth and i want some answers. i want closure. time and time again i say to my friends and i tell myself i’m going to be okay, and it’s going to be okay… i know it is but the question is when? and that i honestly don’t know. i just want an explanation and i will do the exact same. i know that sincere guy is still there deep down, so just take some time out of your day even if it’s just for a few minutes to just listen to what i have to say. just listen.
